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Wednesday, 9 November 2011 -{'20:02
i wonder if you will read this ..
but i know someday you will ..
few days before i promised myself
not to msg you until ive find out ..
but after i made my promised , u replied ..
i dunno if i should reply or not ..
i took long time to thinkk if i should or not ..
and i broke my promised n replied youu .
you really hate me that you ignored my msg ..
let me admit , i lied ..
i said i didnt make any wishes during by birthday ..
actually i did .
i did made 3 wishes that is important to me ..
1) I wished my family would be a better family .
2) I wished my friends and I will get good results for O
3) i wished after my birthday our friendship will be fine
and after o we will have fun .
will my last wish ive made will come true ??
when its alrd in this kind of situation .
im trying my best to fix it , but it just get worst n worsen .
there's so many things i want to ask and say ..
but i dunno how to ask and say ..
sometimes i wonder why i treasure this friendship more that the other 4 .
although being friends with each other made us
hurt,suffer,angry n many more .
we did endured ...
after so much hardships we went through ..
just to let you know ,
no matter what will happen ,
i will and i will continue to treat you the same way n treasure you ..
even if the way you treat me may be different ,
and i know its already different ..
i wish i would know what am i nowww ...
i cant believe it , that you ask ur other friends to go eat or go out with you ,
but you never even ask me ...
that day i saw ur tweet , i purposely msg n tot u will ask ,
but you didnt ..
i tot you will bother to ask me , even if i am not free ... i was wrong ..
i tot 15 you will be free , thinking of going out ..
too bad for me you arent free ..
haiss ..
1 year has passed ..
you've became a friend that i really important to me ..
pretty and bad memories i had ..
but i will still call it awesome even if the bad was more than the good ..
everytime i read the 8th month letter ,
i dunno why , i jsut feel angry and wished to tear it apart ...
if you forget what you wrote , nevermind ...
you will know if you see the letter ..
hmm ..
i really really really hope
everything will go back the same way it doo after o ...
though u may reply my msg ..
but still ...
i really miss having a great laugh tgt , going out tgt ,
having long conversation otp , you keep nagging at me
and all those great timeeee we had ..
i really wish it will happen once again ..
hope you will at least make urself free for a day ...
Believe in me once more ? its been so hard for me to regain ur trust back ..
probably we should talk things out when time is rightt bahhs ...
haiss ..
i dunno what will happen after o ,
but im hoping for a good thing to happen ..
after o , lets have fun again ?? hmm
i shall go and studyy now ..